Posted by fallenpastor | Posted in adultery, holiness, repentance, rest, restoration, sanctification, sin | Posted on 03-08-2012
I’m working on a sermon for Sunday and I got to thinking about my own adultery three years ago and David’s adultery in 2 Samuel 11.
David saw Bathsheba bathing while the troops were away. He knew Bathsheba was the wife of Uriah the Hittite, one of his personal protectors. Uriah was away at battle and protecting Israel. Nonetheless, David sought her out and committed adultery with her. She got pregnant.
The story is pretty simple, but ugly. David called Uriah home. He urged Uriah to go in to sleep with Bathsheba to cover his sin. Uriah wouldn’t do it. Uriah said to David, “The ark and Israel and Judah dwell in booths, and my lord Joab and the servants of my lord are camping in the open field. Shall I then go to my house, to eat and to drink and to lie with my wife? As you live, and as your soul lives, I will not do this thing.”
(2 Samuel 11:11 ESV)
So David had Uriah moved to the front of the line where he would be killed. David had committed adultery and murder.
There had to be a time in David’s life where he was thinking, “I’m the king, I’ve got this sin under control. No one will notice.”
I was there. I was committing adultery as a pastor. Sneaking around, preaching at the same time. I was under guilt, knowing I was doing wrong, but I wouldn’t admit to it. I had an escape plan. I thought I had it all figured out. Like David, I thought, “I’ve got it all figured out. I’m the man. I’ve got my sin all under wraps.” Even though I was wrapped in guilt and shame, I was sure that I had it all under control.
Know what? God knows us. When David wrote in Psalm 139 the following words, they were a comfort to him:
O LORD, you have searched me and known me!
You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
you discern my thoughts from afar.
You search out my path and my lying down
and are acquainted with all my ways.
(Psalm 139:1-3 ESV)
But they are also a warning to us. God sees all we do. There are no secrets from God. We may think we are fooling God, hiding from men, but God knows our every action. We cannot hide from His perfect knowledge.
In 2 Samuel 12, God sent the prophet Nathan to confront David over his sin. He did it very wisely. He told David a parable about a lamb that had been taken from a poor man. David became indignant over this story: Then David’s anger was greatly kindled against the man, and he said to Nathan, “As the LORD lives, the man who has done this deserves to die, and he shall restore the lamb fourfold, because he did this thing, and because he had no pity.”
(2 Samuel 12:5-6 ESV)
Samuel then told David that this man was him. He had taken Bathsheba then killed Uriah. God had seen it all. Thankfully, in time, David repented.
I had no Samuel come to me. I left the parsonage, was fired from the church, and found repentance much later. I was proud in my sin. Thanks to about three men who never gave up on me, I found the path back to God after a while.
It takes brokenness before God to come to repentance. David said in Psalm 51, “Against you and you alone have I sinned.” The day I realized I had spit in the face of God, I repented.
Friends, if you are sinning willfully in the face of God, you cannot hide. It will not last long. You may think you are cunning and wise, but you are not. He already knows.
Repent while you can. You may think that the relationships you have torn up are irreconcilable, but they are not. God can always make a message out of our mess. Look to Him to drag us out of that pit. You may feel as if you have no hope. But with Christ, there is always hope.
He sees in you great worth when others will not. Look to those who will gather around you and comfort you, give you the words of discipline yet also walk with you. I will be one of those men if you need me. I can tell you this – desiring the deliciousness of sin is no replacement for thirsting after the righteousness of God.
If you are engaged in sin, no matter what it is – gossip, adultery, pornography, lust, lying, stealing, pedophilia, alcoholism, wandering from God – today is the day to walk down the path of holiness anew. You will find healing. I promise.
Because I have been at the bottom. And I know Christ makes all things new when He drags us out of that pit.
I waited patiently for the LORD;
he inclined to me and heard my cry.
He drew me up from the pit of destruction,
out of the miry bog,
and set my feet upon a rock,
making my steps secure.
He put a new song in my mouth,
a song of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear,
and put their trust in the LORD.
(Psalm 40:1-3 ESV)